Sunday, August 02, 2009
Current mood: jealous
LOVE STINKS...YEAH YEAH...LOVE STINKS..YEAH YEAH. So I just got off the phone texting one of my best friends. I love her to death. She inspired me to throw a pity party for myself :). Fortunately I only invited me so you know...it's okay. lol. So, let me explain to ya what the issue is. My friend's birthday was yesterday...so her man planned a trip to South Padre Island for them months ago to surprise her. Well the secret got out somehow but they left a few days ago. She text me yesterday to say that she went snorkling...or at least on the boat and got to see all kinds of cool things. I was thinkin...yeah that's pretty cool but I bet there are Jellyfish (eahsdlfasldf) F-in HATE jellyfish! can't even think about them without UGGH nasty.
Anyways...sorry, hit my worst fear (EWWWwwww...okay I'm over it for now) so I coped with that adventure (she got to take) well. Then she texts today and says that she got to go horseback riding on the beach. Aaaaawwwwhhh. Doesn't even matter if you don't wanna do it, it's incredibly romantic in the gesture and Damnit...I'm jealous. Not of the actually happening. Just in the romance. In her having a man that WANTS to do that with her. I dunno...this is why i didn't invite anyone to my pity party. Just me. Sittin at home, alone, in my pj's, all day, not hearin from anyone aside my mom, and my two best friends. Still waiting to hear from the other but I fear her loneliness at the moment will clash with mine and I may just go insane. But I will call cuz I KNOW how she feels right now. Single life is freakin cool, but like I've said in the past, it has it's ups and downs. This was a down day. Just wanting someone special to call and that will say to me...HEY wish I was there. Mmmm...OH HELL, it's life. What happens happens. (And what is it girl...show me your arm again?) OH YES...it is what it is. All we got is time and time relinquishes itself as we go along in our puny little lives where it doesn't matter what you do in the sense of work or living or whatever. Who judges you in the end? RIGHT. And all that matters is that you are content with yourself and you are happy with who you have become. I am. I'm not done climbing to the top but I am sure that the top of the mountain consists of spending time with those I love and not caring what anyone else thinks. Wait...I have that now. Hmmm. Okay, well then the pity party has been busted and everyone needs to go HOME! Wait...I'm already here. Okay...I'm good. Thanks for that!
I also must have pushed a button on one of my best friends cuz they seemed to have thought that I was threatening them by a text I had sent. THAT sucked cuz I was too busy trying to catch the words as they were flying to notice that I had just messed up. NOT my intention in any way and this friend means WAY too much to me to offend or hurt in any way. I was doin other stuff or I would have never let that happen. Even the fact that they felt that way made me feel bad. Seriously Dude, you're my favorite...don't forget it! Phew...close one. NAH, anyone who knows this friend knows that they wouldn't let that effect our friendship...but still shouldn't have even been brought up and it was during my party...how dare they try to ruin my pitty party. Dammmit lol. Actually ironically enough, my party was in turn busted by this friend texting me some funny pithy banter while shopping at Wally World. lol. Oh man...I dunno if they found it as freakin hilarious as I did, but it sure made my night. I'm tellin you...it doesn't take much for my best friend to make me feel less lonely. It's nice. I think I'll go catch a movie with my boy (Junior). Catch yall on the flipside...
OH NO! I almost forgot! I was asked a few nights ago to explain my Myspace...and I shall :D I was told that I have a LOT of pictures of myself...naturally...yes i do. WHY you ask? Well, most people put pictures of their kids. Okay, I do that. My dog and my cat are my kids. I had another dog but i unfortunately couldn't ask for custody of him in the big breakup with the love of my life at the time. So he stays either with his grandparents or his dad. Yeah...I'm still speaking of an animal...he's my son, I miss Axil Rose. I have a home video of him I'd put on here but it may or may not offend his daddy so I won't just to avoid any confrontation :). OKAY so Got pics of the kids. Now, pictures of family. Unfortunately my sister and I don't have many pics of us together but I have one or two of her and I also have a slideshow on my myspace of my nephew and neices and her ex-husband and her. So that's set. I also have pics of my nephew and my ex's nephew and my friend's son. I do NOT have a boyfriend or his pics would be all up on my page so that's nixed. NOW the other most common idea is pics of friends. I DEFINATELY need to take my camera to the bar with me so I can get pics of all of my friends but I just haven't yet. My four or five best friends are on my pics and that's DEFINATELY how I like it. Unfortunately only a couple live around here so there are more of them than others. Now I have explained it. I am single, I like me now which is new I didn't used to ;) this is myspace. If it were yourspace I'd put pics of you up hehehe. LOVE YOU LONG TIME!
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