Sunday, November 15, 2009
Current mood: creative
I don't get to get on here lately due to where I've been staying. There's no wireless internet. HOWEVER, every now and again I come back and I check this to see if anyone has written to catch up or something. I have changed jobs officially starting tomorrow. Gonna be strange but I'm ready :) I embrace my challenge with true acceptance and grace...hopefully. (OKAY I accept it biting nails nervous as hell and trippin over everything in sight lol.) That's about right. Let's just pray the kids dont SEE me AS PREY and attack the new meat that stands before them on Monday because they do know me considering I'll be working in the same place I have been for the entire beginning of this school year AH! Okay...stability not needed in WHERE...but stability in work...which I will have and not lose due to changing positions. (HA changing positions) lol. sorry, my mind is in the gutter. That was hard to follow. However, I don't want to explain it so I hope ya did. :) I am advocating new things in relationships. I am going to have to watch my attitude it seems to be getting out now and again. My mind is in the gutter but I am on edge and have not figured out what it is that is crawling under my skin. I think it has something to do with WHOREMONES lol I like it spelled like that. Anyways I really do think it's something like that cause this is weird. I am moody and on edge a little every day now. I think I need to let it out in another way so that I can treat those bitches around me (just kidding) My loved ones with the respect and happy attitude they deserve to be around. I think something is a miss. Or maybe my diabetes is making me moody with ups and downs but I hope its not, due to the fact that its difficult to explain and make people understand that one. Yeah, sometimes unexpectedy I may bust out with a mean comment or not want anything to touch me cuz my blood sugar is out of control. I probably won't realize it until after I have started a bit of an argument or tiff with you. Then I start thinking about why I'm bein a jerk and realize OH I didn't take a shot or OH I bet you I'm high or low. I'm high maintenance. IT SUCKS. I hate how I get sick sometimes but you know what? My best friend/boyfriend (( I think it's the same thing anyways) But I believe I'm dating now. It's official) was there for me the other day and took care of me during my high blood sugars. I was throwing up and couldn't function and he sat with me in the bathroom and rubbed my back and told everyone to come over another day cuz I didn't feel well and kept water by my side and watched multiple movies that I kept passing out during and he took me to go get pedialite. It meant alot to me to be taken care of as much as I needed it. If you know my past, you understand why it means so much to me. He'll never understand how important it was...seriously. He even kept a hand on me and stayed around me. He didn't leave or use it as an opportunity to run around without me. Either you know me and understand or you don't, but I couldn't say thank you enough. Okay, now I have alot of new friends and it is great
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