Lucky to be ME

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Current mood: chill

Last night I chose to keep my mouth shut...but I happened to be movin around alot last night. I probably should just clear my mind with some hot tea and a good trip home to see my old friends. :) I think it would do the trick. I love my friends here and that my family is so close to me but every now and again I gotta remind myself of my roots. See my parents that believe my sister and I are the best things they ever did and sit in my car which is still not running. HOPE YOU GOT A BIG TRUNK! Cuz I'm gonna put my bike in it. lmao. Just practicing in case. Guess I better go get a tan in case I gotta hike up my skirt to catch a ride lol. Just kiddin. My dad and I are workin on the car to get her runnin. And I still have Maxine for now :).



Well, the carnival is in town and i have to admit a certain someone normally goes with me and it does make me have feelings of missin out on the rides with the sob. (God Rest His Soul). My nephew asked if he was gonna take him and when I told him no, he automatically asked if my best friend would. I told him I wasn't sure if he even liked the fair but that I would bring it to his attention. Which I probably just did actually cuz he reads my blogs every day I put one up. Of course I'm always there but something about the fair makes this child want a man around. Must be all the dirt and adrenaline. lol.



I'm watching my friends around me in their relationships lately and it almost seems as if every single one of them is crumbling before them. Like, have you ever tried to love someone that just doesn't feel the same? I love the song cuz it makes so much sense to me. Men and women the same...if you put your all into something or spend your time trying to convince someone they feel something for you that they just don't...you're going to be in a world of pain when the stress starts to take over your body. Breakouts, stomach and digestive issues, acid buildup, or even depression leading to sleep and other issues. IT SUCKS! Trust me, I know. You can look at someone who is capable of saying that you are the most wonderful or close to the perfect person...that they just don't feel it would work between you or they just don't want to try. I've been there. Now watching my friends go through it, I am so happy to be spending time with people or even one person capable of looking me in the eye and saying, you are beautiful or you are special and mean it. My friends are okay with letting me sit in their arms in order to feel as if I'm safe. I love it. Can't go wrong with someone you trust. Most relationships aren't even that good. Here I have friends that take care of me and CARE FOR me in ways that I could never explain well enough on here. I'll keep it. Thank you. I just hope it doesn't change in a way that I don't get to hang out as much or experience all I have been Any LESS that would suck too. Anyways, I gotta jet. Gotta get ahold of one of those friends to get my phone back...tricky concept. Get ahold of someone without a phone? How did people function before cell phones? WOW!