Saturday, February 20, 2010
Current mood: crushed
THANK GOD I have a wonderful man to hold me and talk me through this week. Without him, I would have ejected myself from social life and sunlight completely by now this week. I seriously think it could be worst but it would be totally unfathomable. HELP ME!
Where shall I start? Okay, so I got my wisdom teeth removed. All 4 at once and with the way the bottom ones were growing in, they had to remove some bone too. This sounds just as bad as it is lol. Yeah, I say lol but I can't smile because it hurts like hell lol. Now, my face is swollen, looked like a monkey or a chipmunk for 3 days and now I'm bruised from chin to cheek bone. Yeah, looks like I got the crap beat out of me. And again, hurts like hell. The stitches are way up in my gums and it's killin me. Perkiset helps...but then I'm moody and tired. Not a good mix with the rest of my week.
I have a new puppy named Bagley Eggleface. Yes, it's got 2 names. lol I call him Bagles Bagley Baglesbee, you name it cuz we named him. He's Junior's son and yes, i have pictures but it's tough getting them off my phone without my cord so I'm working on that. I also have videos of the little guy. He's so cute. And a lil turd...but he's a miniature blue chihuahua what can you expect? For those of you that know me from before, he looks much like Coozie without the crooked jaw. He has the coolest personality and he's just tiny. Well a couple days ago, I felt the tug on my heart when he started having Serious seizures. they got so bad that I took him to the vet and was begging for help cuz he actually died in our arms and we brought him back with valume they gave us for his seizures before to make it stop. He got worse and worse until finally we called the hospital and had him admitted. I have spent tons of time and effort getting up in the middle of the night and feeding, potty training, loving on him...now he's sick and has a cathider in his little tiny leg. I took him to get it out and the doctor said that if he continues to have such serious seizures as often as he has been then we should put him down. I was stoked about having a puppy considering I haven't had luck having kids and I thought this was the next best thing...Now he's being taken from me too. I'm devistated. We both are. And i am going to throw my little fit and say you know what? This is not fair!!! We're trying a steroid and an anti-seizure medication on him but he's still having these awful seizures. I can't even protect my own baby. I feel like a failure as a mother knowing I can't help him. His disease is called Hypocephalus and it's common in chihuahuas (fluid around the brain). I did the research looking for alternative ways to treat it but for an 8 week old tiny little puppy, it's not looking good. I'm such an animal lover too (and I don't mean in the sheets nasty) lol that's another story another day. lol. No, seriously I love animals and this is just heartbreaking!A couple paychecks later, the odds are not in my Bagley's favor. We can't afford an operation that no one thinks will end well and we don't know anyone who will even try to perform it on a dog his size. Lemme be emotional and cry about this on my pain medication while I eat nothing but soup, my teeth killin me and to top this all off, you wanna hear the kicker?
Sorry if I haven't answered texts or phone calls cuz I gracefully dropped my phone in the toilet. Yep, this is not my week people. My legs look better...not well yet, but not painful. THANKS for letting me whine and cry and release on here. I needed that. Love you guys, it can only get better from here right? Right.
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