So when life handed me lemons I thought, Why the hell would I take these? I'm allergic, and then started a new chapter in my life. Here I stand, a new life without the poison of lies and love-struck stupidity. Here in my new found contentment of MYSELF, I realize that it's okay to hurt a little when friends are there to pick you up and it's okay to be confused about the future.
Some friends may come and go, but the real ones never change and when you talk after years of silence, you get right back to where you left off lol. That's who I need right now. Not some lust driven relationship that I have no control over. I am 23 years old. I have plenty of time and I do NOT need a man to keep me on my feet. However, I hope to someday soon find one who would like to walk beside me and share everything I have to offer in the same way that I would indulge in his offerings.
I'll find him. He's just not ready to surface yet lol. Maybe he's too afraid to let go of the one thing he always depended upon...the fight. AH yes, the man who clings to a fight in order to feel he is still alive in someone's eyes but is too afraid to accept anything new. The man who clings to his past issues in order to avoid a scary new start in discovering new things within new people. So what's scarier, the confused man, or the woman who hasn't let go? Yes, she will always be a sappy LOVE seeker. I just want to be okay today and as for tomorrow, I'll deal with that when today is over.
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