Dancing on Pianos??? WHAT?

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Current mood: adventurous

SO what if you say you're in love? WHAT DOES IT MEaN? I love my mom. I love my dad. But when I look into his eyes I can honestly say I love you and mean it in a way that proves I will BE THERE for you. I don't just say it because I have to on the phone or as he's leaving. It's one of those things where when I look at him I can evaluate what he is and who he is and it comes out like something I can't stop. Even if I tried it would blurt out because every feeling in my body tells me to say it even if he doesn't ever reply again. When I say it...its MY feeling and MY heart wanting him to know how much he means to me. It's not just a reassurance thing that I'm watching people around me use it for. That's sick and twisted. Jedi mind tricks are wrong! If you don't mean it...let me tell you a secret..."WE DON'T WANNA HEAR IT!" Wait until you're ready. Okay I'm done...with that.

A certain someone...uh hum...me. Decided to go out of town and have one last horrah and get smashed...kinda like a "smoke out" but a "drink out". Okay DRUNK out is more like it. lol. Kesha did a few things she does not regret but also does not think she would have ever done on a sober consience. I may have sorta been coaxed onto stage by the band to celebrate 2 guys' 21st birthdays. I also may have used them as stripper poles...ALONG with 3 other women. And that's not the most shocking part. There was a 250-300 pound man on the stage jokingly dancing and everyone was laughing at him...well my man dared me to get onstage and dance with him...and OH did I EVER! I tapped the piano man on the shoulder and motioned to go onstage and he replied in such an excited manor that I just HAD to do it. I got onstage and danced with him...or shall I say on him...for a few seconds...then He convinced me to get UP ON TOP of the pianos. I was having a blast...so naturally...I did. I danced up there like I knew what I was doin and spun around and the piano men were saying what to do on the mic...and I did everything they said. Put my legs on his shoulders and danced my heart out. Probably the craziest thing I've ever done in my life. Lubbock rocked...but now there ARE pictures running around of me dancing provocatively on pianos...oops. My bad. I should have bet them money...but since I never paid for a drink I guess I'll call it even. Bye bye crazy bar nights...so long dancing on pianos drunk...and no more alcohol for me. I just had to send my reguards to the taxi cab rides home lmao. Now I feel accomplished.



Now...you want to hear how I felt redeamed as a respected woman? At the end of the night they played the star-spangled banner and as I watched all of the military men stand up and put their hats over their hearts...I set up in my chair right beside the stage...(cuz it was a live band playing all kinds of 80's rock music which we thouroughly enjoyed and I sang EVERY song and the band knew it and loved that our table was so INTO their performance)....then they saw as I proudly sat up and they all watched as I signed it for them. They loved it. I felt awesome...then I was proud to smile and say bye to everyone as we walked out and closed the bar down.



So I won't be doin that any time soon...it kinda sucked as I felt the aftermath...but it was worth it to have that one more night. Now I gotta hunt down the pics...cuz they're somewhere on myspace lol.

GOIN IN for CT scans tomorrow! Hope all goes well but not being too optimistic to set myself up for dissapointment. They're not convinced it's not my kidneys so I'm gonna go find out. Then to Lubbock for more tests as soon as I get an appointment. Wish me luck...and hope they won't be surprised to find out I'm superwoman and that nothing can stop my drive!!!! HOLD ON! HERE WE GO AGAIN!!!!