Dream as if you'll live FOREVER, but Live as if you'll die tomorrow. I think this is my new motto. Because every day I am presented with opportunities that I pass up because I say..."You know, I'll do it another day". What if there is no other day to do that? What if doing that one thing could potentially change someone's life? What if our ability to be lazy creates an inevitability of DOOM!?!?! Dun dun dun. No seriously. And why not Dream as if I'll live forever? Why not make plans to do something that I wouldn't normally think I "had time" to do? I should reach for my goals of...
1...Looking my own child in his/her eyes
2...Pet a live white tiger (and cub preferrably)
3...Drive down Highway 1 in a convertible (hopefully mine)
4...Find happiness in the company of another and solidify that (yes...get married to someone who enjoys my time as much as I enjoy theirs)
Woah woah woah you say...this last one makes no sense. There is no such thing as true love or as you put it...perfection!?! Well wait just one second my friend. This kind of thing DOES EXIST. Believe it or not, there is such a thing as a relationship (God help us all) and not just a relationshit. I've seen it...Don't argue. Calm down...I'll explain but OH I've seen it in the love my grandparents had for each other. TRUE love. Perfection not in a perfect person but found within a best friend that you cannot stand to be without. This kind of perfection is not seen by everyone but created within our minds, hearts and souls. Where this one person is kind and good hearted and fun and in my case, sarcastic in a sense that you just can't wait to be around them 5 minutes after they've left to go pick up milk. Yeah, I saw it when my grandfather held my grandmother's hand on her hospital bed and said I can't do this without you. She replied, "It's okay, I'm ready and I will have dinner for you on the table when you meet me there." They said their I love yous and not minutes later, she passed away. From that moment on, my grandfather could tell stories from years in the past about grandma, but the moment she passed, he had self-inflicted memory loss and refused to remember what happened from that day on. This is my inspiration of true love and if you knew them, you would understand, but unfortunately majority of you will never get that pleasure cuz they have passed already. (God rest their sweet loving souls)
I have to be optimistic that this will all happen and realize in the same sense that I have PLENTY more that I would love to do but the main goals in life are not little things. They are things that if they were NOT to happen that we would never be the same. Life changing events that make us who we are and create a sense of joy and contentment even when it's not exactly how we had planned it to be. Like, I would love for the father of my child to be the one I marry because he turns out to be my best friend of all time and he wants to raise my child with morals and beliefs that reflect each of our personalities in the best ways possible. However, I hate to say it, but you notice that getting married and finding that man is not the top of my list. Actually, looking into my newborn baby's eyes (my own creation) is first because regardless of what happens or what may come of my life, that is MUCH more important to me than trying to tie down someone who does NOT agree with me on everything that is important to me in life and love. YES it would be a wonderful and fantastic thing if this man happens to be my child's father...but if not...then okay. The baby shall be mine and regardless of my marital or relationship status. Nothing can change this fact :) Who's baby is it you ask? MINE. End of story. Don't worry, I'm not going to go out and TRY to get pregnant by just anyone so that I can have a kid...but whatever happens happens. I'll take the precautions and if they don't work, then I will deal with whatever comes to me as I live life with a smile on my face and hope for a better day as each day ends. Even if today is the best day of my life...my belief is tomorrow will be better.
WELL number two has simply got to happen someday. I would love to pet a bengal tiger or any type of jungle cat to be honest, but a white tiger is my goal...why? Well I'm infatuated with white tigers of course. The majestic beauty they entail is just phenomenal. Their gracefulness in their every move is just...OOOOooo Awesome, I can't tell you how much I love felines, but I can show you :) I try not to let loose of my infatuation too much by overriding my house or life with them...that's kinda creepy, but if you were to walk into my house, you'd know that large felines has got to be my fettish.
Highway 1 is a special type of goal of mine and the reason it is number 3 is because until you experience it, you would never understand the intensity of this road. Sounds strange doesn't it? This road leads you along the coast of California and it is mostly ocean view. The sun sets beautifully on the water as you drive along endulging the colors and hues as they sink into the ocean that reflects every pixel as if there are two sunsets at once and the water rippling through it is absolutely amazing. You say, this happens anywhere you stand by the ocean. It is possible, however, these winding roads that dip in and out of the mountains surrounding you in the beauty of nature in it's most beautiful state...which is the ocean meeting with solid ground in midst of a warm summer day. Top down, smelling, watching, feeling, the ocean. Not to mention the awesome animals you come across and landmarks you see while driving. Okay, I could go on forever about this feeling...gives me chills.
So anyways, that's my ideas for today and I think I am going to start cleaning so maybe tonight I can relax in my house without feeling guilty about anyone coming over to see it in it's current state. Yeah, not so good. Dishes are done, but they are still in the dishwasher making it difficult to load it again with the dishes I am using so they go straight into the sink...which in turn makes them...not done...EVER lol. The living room needs a once over. It's not bad but I would like to move the couch today so that I may fit the two ab and workout machines behind it for motivation to get myself in shape and healthier. I also need to work with the laundry again cuz well it's never done either but I can't seem to get caught up on it cuz well...I'm broke and the machines at the laundry matt are expensive...yeah too broke to do laundry who'da thunk it? I plan to make a meal tonight and I will invite a friend to join me...but even if that does NOT happen, I will be content in myself knowing I did it anyways. I need to get back into the habbit of cooking an actual meal at night in order to be...more healthy. yes. Then...I'll hit the floors. The most annoying of all of chores for me. I hate mopping. But it must be done :) So I will :) make my house smell like lemons again. Other than that...it's just picking up here and there to make it presentable to others. No Screw that. To make it better for ME! HAVE A GREAT DAY ALL!Look pics of highway 1 but they still do it no justice
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