So What If I DO?

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Current mood: chill

I like to listen to whatever music fits my mood. Fortunately true Rock music fits all moods, it can get you pumped and then at the same time, you can be angry at someone and sing the exact words you were singing but TOWARDS someone and it kinda makes you feel better...well it does for me.



I got told something today that set me back. I have a friend that is experimenting with different things...am I worried, yes, but only because this friend means so much to me and I'm worried they might get too far into trying new things and find something they really like. Everyone has to try new things at one time or another tho so in a way I'm glad that this friend is so young. I remember my experimental phase. You know some things scared the living shit out of me but most people tell me it was because of my environment and the people I had around me. That's probably true. At the time, I was very insecure and scared to be alone anyways and it just wasn't a good time to try anything that could possibly change your mind setting. if ya know what I mean.



I got another little tid bit on the person that broke my heart recently. lol. His girl wants to be in a relationship that is OPEN...anotherwords, if you read my previous blogs...what does that mean? Dating other people? Dating? You're NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME! HAhahahahaha. Okay I'm done being petty. I deserve to be a little tho cuz I was promised a lot and in a way I feel he just took my heart from my hands and laughed at me as he set it down or showed it to other chicks and other people. Needless to say, I got quite a few friends out of it because well, they all LIKE me. and now they all think hes a dick. It's great stuff. (oh did I say I was done being petty? Well I meant NOW I'm done being petty) hahahahaha Oh priceless (okay no, seriously this time I'm done.)



My best friend worked it out with her guy and I couldn't be happier for her. She's gonna try and make it work this time, and they're gonna work together hopefully to get it right this time. Best of luck to them...but of course, it does make me a little more lonely cuz I was getting a bit used to the fact of her being around so much. Now she's got someone to go see a lot. OH but she did take me on a surprise date regardless to see Monsters vs. Aliens in 3D cuz I was so sad that everyone with kids went without me lol. So that was totally sweet. And it was awesome, we had the Theater entirely to ourselves so she was commenting on how the giant chick was me and the other monsters were our friends, it was so hilarious, it fit perfectly! Haha. Then we went to eat so I know she's not gonna be one of those people that just drops you out of nowhere...sorry I have a man and there's no room for a friend...Ha that's rediculous to me! (Oh shit, sorry guys, especially to my friends, cuz I was one of those people...that was wrong and rediculous) I take it back as much as I possibly can. I am sorry. Never again!



Can I sing a little song? No? oh Okay. Never mind. lol. I will be visiting another city this weekend for Sat. night and onto Sunday afternoon I suppose so I won't be around, but no worries, I've got my heart on lockdown, my hooker boots re-painted black, and my hips ready to shake it on the dancefloor! hehe. I'm going alone. I know right? WHAT? Kesha leaving out of town ALONE? I'm soing to see someone who I will be staying with but don't even try to figure out with who or where cuz I'm not saying. It's a secret ;) WHY? DRAMA! that's why lmao. I'm just ready to go have a good time and then Monday back to work! 3 WEEKS after this week is up! AHAHHhhhhh scary thought. I gotta take a week or something to clean sweep my house. It needs it desperately.



Well I got a friend on IM now that wants to chat, so I'm gonna give her that respect! Be back another time!!!!!!