Translation...He's just not that into you HA

Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Current mood: nauseated

I have somehow managed to do it again. The moment I get confortable with what is going on...I get sideswiped...with a heartwrenching newsflash. Let's see, the last few have been:



I love you but don't want to hurt you (TRANSLATION PLEASE?) I care about you but I'm gona have sex with other people so I can't be with you anymore.



I am still in love with her (TRANSLATION) I've been seeing her behind your back and you're just not the "mother figure" she is for me.



And last but not least the latest one: I got a job offer and I don't do long-distance relationships (TRANSLATION) You're so not worth waiting around for so I'm moving away and I do not wanna try to work it out.

To be fair, he got a great paying job and doesn't want it to pass him by, but seriously, if I was offered a great job I would do one of two things. ONE: Take the job but NOT give up on everything and everyone I established life with. OR TWO: Turned down the damn job because it is not worth losing the person I have started a life with.



Yeah, but unfortunately, that's not the road that was taken. I'm totally single again. Instead he chose the road of picking at all of the things like bug him about me in order to beat me down into the ground so I would understand why he was not slowing down the relationship...but stopping it completely in it's tracks. Oh and all of those things he picked at...happen to be EVERYTHING I COULD POSSIBLY DO. And apparently they're all wrong. Who knew? Him apparently. So in the words of Dane Cook, I will float here in my sea of wrong as he floats by on his ship of right. Don't throw me a life raft. I don't deserve that because apparently we weren't together for long enough for me to get that. Well oh well. I can swim. And my friends happen to have boats. Small town girl is gonna do a once over of her apartment to make it my own again...unfortunately that means my big ass TV is gone...cuz well it was his. Don't worry though, my dad happens to have owned a ZENITH TV store and sold Sony like crazy. I can get a perfectly good TV and have a great one too lol. It may not be a flat screen but I truly don't need one. I'll get one when the time is right. Other than missing him, I'll miss the snake and that's just about it. OH and I'm not being dirty. I bought him a snake for his birthday. She was worth the 200 bucks. She was a red-tailed boa. I think I'll bounce back...NO I KNOW I'll bounce back.

My best friend and her man, which happens to be one of my friends as well, are taking me out on the boat on Sunday for the 4th of July thing at the lake. First we'll enjoy the fireworks show in our hometown. It's normally pretty awesome. I will also get to spend time with family so I'm okay with that



In other news...I have been really sick for a few days. The first time I've eaten was once today, I ate a salad. I was so weak that I couldn't hold my head up and if I did pick it up then I would lose everything I had to drink. It was miserabe. I spent lots of time on the bathroom floor. I guess my insulin didn't work, or I was fighting something else but nothing was helping me. My blood sugars were up so high that the meter read HIGH. This means it was over 600. NOT GOOD it's supposed to be between 80 and 120. So it was a bit off. I tried for 2 days to get it down and I almost had to send myself to Lubbock cuz I had no strength and was not very responsive. I got it down to 300 on the third day thank GOD cuz I hate the hospital. They put me in for two weeks and charge 2,000 a night. Well anyways, I'm doing a lot better and will be back tomorrow!