Monday, May 25, 2009
Current mood: worried
So something hit me yesterday as I was sitting at the park pondering life's quarrels...it was a frisby hahaha, just kidding. I couldn't help it. I was seriously thinking yesterday about how petty people can be and how fickle people are and felt like slapping a certain brother in law I used to have. I have always treated him like family and don't get me wrong, he has made ONE HELL OF A SPERM DONOR for my sister cuz my nephew is the most awesome thing that could have ever come from any person unworthy of carrying such a tremendous thing inside them for 9 months and WOW. Okay, back to slappin bitches. He has decided that we do NOT have the RIGHT to keep my nephew if my sister decides to let us. ARE YOU SERIOUS!?!?!?! I'm so hurt it's not even funny. That is my nephew he is my world, he is my heart, my everything. My world revolves around him and that's how I like it. No man could ever take the place of that boy in my life. AH bastard I am really hating on my ex bro right now. He needs to straighten up and check again.
Tomorrow I am a little scared to go to the doctor as well. My body has been showing signs of being damaged. And I think it may be my kidneys. No big thing yet, I'm going to get tests run, but I am frightened. If it is my kidneys...then diabetes has finally gotten one on me. I've had it since I was 5 and I think it may be catching up. Pray for me...do a chant, think of me tomorrow whatever you do, but please...don't freak out and worry. I'm doing enough of that myself. My ankles are swelling every day and my legs are too, now my body is all showing the symptoms and I'm having alot of back pain. We'll see I guess. But the longer I sit here, the worst it hurts so I'm out...gotta go for today but I'll write later on tonight or tomorrow. It is summer time after all.
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