Who's a BadAss?

I swear I have tried to portray myself as a strong, versatile, prosperous woman, but even so, when I cannot sleep due to horrible, terrifying, and incredibly realistic nightmares, I am stuck thinking at night until my head hurts so bad from trying to figure things out and my eyes hurt so bad from stressing them so long and my heart hurts from thinking too much...that I finally fall asleep.  Only to wake up an hour or two later crying my eyes out from whatever my subconscious has decided to present to me as something I need to see now.  Why is my subconscious torturing me?  Why can't I dream of beautiful things that I will get to see or make up things and imagine things I want to see but will never get the opportunity to?  This is not fair, and the only one I can blame is myself because they are my dreams and MY subconscious...which really sucks.  I would truly rather blame someone else if at all possible...but NO...tis I that is at fault (pause for dramatic effect). Woah is me.  I suppose I am creating my own tears, letting my fears get the best of me and treat me like a lowly little girl when I am anything but that.  Time to do some soul searching.  Not in the way that most do, but in the way that I need to...finding my inner badass and forcing her out against her own will.  Now, if I were a badass hiding inside someone's mind, where would I be? Probably somewhere in the vicinity of ninjas and heroins.  OKAY here it goes...wish me luck.  I may come out with bruises and scrapes but I'm gonna make my badass come out....wait a minute...if I am the one forcing a badass out doesn't that make ME like a superbadass or something?  I mean, I AM being the enforcer in a situation where I have to be even stronger than the counterpart that doesn't want to initiate this right?  ALRIGHT maybe I AM gonna be okay.  NOW to go find my subconscious and slap the shit out of it...again...wish me luck :) and better dreams.  - Kesha Flint

Just for smiles

So lately I have noticed that the pickup lines have gotten old. Can I borrow a quarter to call my mom, did it hurt when u fell from heaven, damn you're tall...yeah, I've heard it...along with everyone else in the place, so I decided I would search some out to help you out next time you see someone you wanna be clever with. Now my favorite is definitely the one I found a couple weeks ago stating "if you were a shin, I'd bang you on my coffee table" hahaha hilarious, but here are some more to think about, or possibly just to get a giggle out of you. If I have saved one thing through all of this, it is my sense of humor. So...humor me and read these I found! .............................. If I had to choose between one night with you or winning the lottery...I would chose winning the lottery...but it would be close...real close... ....,.,.....,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, You are a 9 - you'd be a perfect 10 if you were with me. ................,.....,,,,,,,...,,,,,,,.,,, You know, you might be asked to leave soon. You're making the other women look really bad. ........................................ Hello, I'm doing a survey of what people think are the cheesiest pickup lines. So, do you pick 'Do you come here often?', 'What's your sign?', or 'Hello, I'm doing a survey of what people think are the cheesiest pickup lines.'? ........................................... When God made you, he was showing off. .......................................... I'm not trying to impress you or anything, but... I'm Batman! ...........................,,,,,,,,,,................ [Point at her ass] Pardon me, is this seat taken? ............................................. (As she is leaving) Hey aren't you forgetting something? (What?) Me! ..................................................................... Muahahaha worth a second look right? They make me laugh so I would probably at least stick around for a few and get to know this funny person a bit better lol - Kesha Flint

The way I'm seen

Today I was told that I am stronger than most. I don't see that when I look in the mirror. I see a woman who has often felt rejection, inadequateness, fear, and pain. I have been hurt many times and I cry too. I am definitely made from my emotions. Yes I believe I am a Libra by astrology's choice and timing and for some reason...that is quite accurate.   I cry often when I am alone to let out my fears and pain and yes I do put on a smile in public or around those I do not want to frighten. You will never see me show my fears or pain to my nephew, for example, because he has more important things to worry about, like why all of the avengers are not appropriately portrayed on his table cloth at his birthday. There is no reason to scare him or any of my friends or family over something as minuscule as myself.  This world is huge and filled with horrible things happening all around us and it would not only be selfish, but positively wrong for me to take attention from more important things. I am no longer in pain, except for when bright lights are turned on or in my line of sight unexpectedly. Most of the pain is gone.   No, my sight is not better, in fact it is worse, but the dr. Said that it would get worst before it gets any better. My left eye is difficult to see through due to the bleeding that happened from the retina before they burned it. If my body can convince itself to reabsorb the blood, then I will get most of my sight back. My parifrial vision in my left eye seems to have been compromised but as soon as the streaks (dark lines that look like ink in water) go away...hopefully...I will have a large part of my vision back in that eye. My right eye is just blurred now but not as drastically as it was a week ago. I feel pretty good except for having to rely on everyone for rides...cuz obviously I can't drive...even to allsups. Strange how the smallest task becomes a big deal because I have to disrupt everyone else's lives too. Wow. What a bug. But I'm always thankful for those who smile when they pick me up and pretend like this is exactly what they wanted to do that day...help me out. I have some fantastic friends...let me tell you. I would also like to say that all of my manners have gone out the window. Please do not take it personally if you say hi and I act like I don't recognize you. I really can't see you from far away and especially at night. Everyone looks the same to me and I am not ignoring or blowing you off. I am just going about my life hoping that people who know me will announce themselves, or walk close enough I don't seem rude. I apologize if I have treated anyone unfairly since, this has happened. It is not on purpose I promise. From the bottom of my heart...I care. I swear I do. ( oh except for that guy...don't talk to me, I was ignoring you) JUST KIDDING LOL!!!! I can't think of anyone I hate that much, if I do, then ya probably would be avoiding me cuz you have done something horrible to me, not the other way around. Till next time friends, and family, and loved ones, and people who read my blog that I don't know, and YOU...YES especially you, no, not that guy...you. Seriously I mean it, thanks for reading this ;) - Kesha Flint