It's amazing

It is truly amazing at how someone can come into your life, know nothing about you, and SAVE your soul from crumbling into a million pieces.  I have this friend that knows very little about me and this friend just so happens to not live here now.  He has no clue as to what is bothering me but gives 100% or more to attempt to make me smile almost every day.  It's the people that look past the smile and see the pain in your heart and soul that can honestly help you in the end.  Is it good to rely on a stranger you ask?  WELL YES if you have the backup to reinforce that others you love know them and vouch for their awesomeness. Hahaha...just kidding, this person is not a stranger, we've met and hung out and made a true connection as friends.  This person is special in alot of ways and apparently, without knowing it, I may have helped out while he went through a tough time as well...isn't Karma BEAUTIFUL sometimes?  All we did was create just a bit of sunshine in each other's lives through laughter and friendship and now we've met on a deeper level without even hearing each others' voices or having to be in each other's presence.  WHY can't more people be like that? Open to new friendships and letting people in?  Friendship is WAY more awesome than any other relationship cuz if you TRULY CARE for a friend you won't leave that person high and dry no matter what happens in your life...did I say NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS? Okay just clarifying that one. 

I have many friends.  Some from way back in the day and some new.  Some I had before and now I have them back again as better friends.  Either way, a friend is a friend and when you find those friends that make you smile, laugh and even cry (good tears) they are worth their weight in GOLD! Or possibly more, I have some very light weight friends that are worth more than that lol.  Everyone else can cope with the fact that you get what you give!  I was told today that I sometimes seem like I'm crying inside.  WELL I am sometimes.  I have a wall built up that I don't expect I could cross, let alone anyone else, and someone, today saw something and pointed it out to me and I cried with the biggest smile on my face I've had in weeks.  I just want to say thank you to this friend.  It turned on a switch that has been off for quite a run of days. I feel like I still have alot of growing to do but in this moment, I feel pretty damn good about where I'm at and why.  THANK YOU FRIEND!  Oh what a sight it is to see that light at the end of the tunnel even if it is faint and dim and flickering on and off.  IT'S THERE! and I think I just started runnin to it.