So last night while I was lying in bed...alone...again...lol, I started thinking to myself, "Self, you have got to figure out why things like this keep happening to you." Well, I've got it!!!! By golly I have got it. Are you ready for this one? It's reaching but I hope it makes sense. Put on your thinking caps lol.
You're on a ship. A beautiful, nice ship and it starts sinking. You think, "where did I put my alcohol?" Just kidding. Haha. You think oh man I need something to save me. What could that possibly be? My world is crashing down in front of me and I just don't know how I will survive this one. Then I come along. I am a liferaft, complete with everything you need. I have an awning for shelter, I have enough suppliment to last you a lifetime, I have a bathroom, which we'll call a dumping groud for all the bullshit you bring along, I have room for all the baggage you need to bring onboard. I have enough alcohol to support your partying fun ways, and a recliner fit enough for a king for you to relax in when you are tired or just plain worn out and need comfort. I also listen which is new. I am there for YOU and no one else. But here's the deal...we have LOTS of fun, spend amazing days, weeks, months, years, together and you decide that you convince me to take you to shore so that you can get a good walk on solid ground...I ask you to fold me up and take me with you, but you convince me you will be back. BUT HERE'S THE KICKER! NO ONE LIVES ON A LIFERAFT. No it's back to a ship where hundreds of people have been, it's not fun to live on a liferaft, the liferaft is simply to get you to safety...and I can certainly do that. But once you've had your fill of me, once you have gotten your bearings back and you feel good again and you aren't sea sick, you can get right back on your speed boat and never see me again...until you once again need saving. SOOOOO I ASK YOU...who is your liferaft, and when will I be picked up on a yaught and taken away? When will someone truly feel safe in my arms and want to keep me around through the weather, whether it is good or bad?
What a lowly liferaft I am. Proud to be the reason so many things work out for other people, but SO ready for someone to pick me...so many have had the chance and so many have walked out of my life due to other things looking more desireable. Now I ask myself...What is so desireable? KIDS? Am I failing by not already having them? Cuz everyone leaves me for chicks with kids. The job aspect? My job isn't respectable enough? Surely that's not true. My looks? Should I look like them cuz most of them have the same type of body structure...wow just noticed that. I hope not, I can't get shorter. lol. Maybe it's my personality. I'm too nice? Too naive? Too determined? Too loving? C'mon people drop me a bone. WHAT IS IT????
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